我了解
我明白
我知道
我清楚

我伤心
我失望
我难过
我痛失

我不笑
我不哭
我不想
我不要

崩溃

请别再伤害我了，我已经遍体鳞伤了。

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been thinking lately about life and future

so afraid to step out from the comfort zone

reality is always ugly and harsh

haunted me recently

am i ready for it yet

uncertainties and doubts

so overwhelmed

turn to be coward all of a sudden

lied to myself every single day

just wish to run away

tomorrow is just another day

goodnight and think later

Bye 2011 and hello 2012

end of year 2011

what you have done

remember what you set for the new year's resolution

is the list all checked and cleared

have you set for the new targets and goals

what are you going to be in 2012

believe that through our efforts, we can make a difference in our lives of another by becoming a better listener not a master in solving another's problem

words of encouragement go a lot further than offering solutions that may or may not work

life is not made up of story problems to solve, but daily challenges to overcome and lessons to learn

may we each strive to become better listeners, spreading love and kindness to our companion

it wouldn't be new year if i didn't have regrets

i learnt and mistakes made will not be repeated again

been deeply wounded for 2011

it's time to stitch it back

thanks for those whom i loved and loved me

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Confession of the broken heart

The heart is aching.
The mind is out.
The soul is stolen.
I'm ready to cry.

Vexation, agitation, disappointment, hatred...

You caused me to feel so.
I don't want it.

Numb.
Thank you so much for treating me like this.
I believe I don't deserve this.

Time to say goodbye.

Confession of sin

At this point of time, I feel like giving myself bitch slap.
This is the worst feeling ever, and it disgusts me hell much.
Why like this? Why am I doing this?
The most sober time is when I'm awake from the dizziness and the after alcohol effect.
I can actually see my ugly face, the true color, the worst me.
I want to stop all the nonsense. As much as the unwillingness, I still have to do it.
The sinner's sin, the ridiculous me.

Pain in the arse!

Do you know how tough it is to hold your tears even though your heart has broken into pieces?
Do you know how to pretend you are fine but in fact you already lost your heart and mind?
Do you know how suffering it is when you lost someone's trust?
Do you know once you are dead, troubles gone!

How I wish to end my life now rather than facing you now?


Go fuck yourself!

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名字改得不好，運就會有差
平常不做虧心事，可是厄運總是跟隨著
待人處事都謹慎，惡人非要找碴
總覺得事事都不是很順利
心想一定不會事成，倒頭來就是一場空

I always learn it in a hard way.
The bad experiences told me what to do in the future.
I learn to be smart from the mistakes made previously.
What I want and how I get it, the 'things' I want which will make me happy and satisfied.
Even this, I'm still learning, learn to earn people's respect.

Ridiculous post after shit happened. I have no idea what myself is typing. I just want to write.
Hope it's a goodnight for me.
Xoxo...